RIP. Honestly, I don't have any answers to this PTSD thing. I've survived things that would horrify most people but they just made me tougher and meaner. I've mellowed a lot but it took many years to enable that.
Counseling helps but as soon as a guy mentions wanting to end his life, the counselor gets all freaked out. For folks with horrible memories haunting them, thoughts of suicide are routine.
Flash